Chem Log #1 - Snakey Mathematics (Amphetamine Salts {Adderall}) [Subject: Self]

My experience with amphetamines, mostly amphetamine salts, has occured over the past 8 or so months, since late December of 2009. I was prescribed them by my doctor for possible ADD, and upon noticing their euphoric and focus-increasing effects, decided to hone them for recreational use.

My first time trying it was, as to be expected, the most incredible, probably enhanced by the fact that I didn't know what the hell was going on. I took my 20 mg dose of Adderall IR in the morning and, after about 30 minutes, began to feel really... good. A fantastic body high grew inside of me, as did an extreme mental euphoria. I became extremely affectionate with my girlfriend, as well as my two housemates.

Of course, as I experimented more, different effects came. Early this year, each usage was proceeded by a psychosis and a bad depression. I stopped doing it for awhile, though eventually returned to try it once more and figure out exactly why this depression happened. Finally, through deep thinking, it occurred to me why I became depressed afterward:

I was sad that the good effects were wearing off.

As a person with major depressive disorder, this was not a fun thing. Through discovering this, however, I was able to eliminate this horrid effect. The only negative effects I really feel now are exhaustion from lack of sleep, and an annoying cotton-mouth. These symptoms can change depending on whether I am taking Adderall IR or XR.

I know my limits, and I know addiction, as I've been a smoker for one-and-a-half years. I've never been addicted to Adderall, though have gotten close; upon realizing that I was on the edge of addiction, I simply stepped back for awhile.

That is an overview of my personal experience with Adderall, and i'm sure other posts on it will be made more than once.

Chemical composition:

• 1/4 dextroamphetamine saccharate
• 1/4 dextroamphetamine sulfate
• 1/4 (racemic dextro/levo-)amphetamine aspartate monohydrate
• 1/4 (racemic dextro/levo-)amphetamine sulfate

Symptoms experienced (personally):

• Increased alertness (Heightened over time)
• Increased motivation
• Increased talkativeness
• Euphoria (Dulled over time)
• Reduced appetite
• Dilated pupils
• Restlessness
• Dry mouth
• Headache (Rare)
• Tachycardia
• Bruxism (Under control)
• Increased blood pressure
• Dizziness (Rare)
• Twitching, uncontrollable ticks
• Insomnia
• Depression (Under control)
• Inability to achieve orgasm

Reference of Amphetamine chemical make-ups: